Recently, I’ve been in the province for more than a week. That was last Aug. 29..The reason why i rushed going home was to see my grandma whose sick, ill and weak… she was on her last stages of cancer & tumor in her womb. I want to take care of her on her last days.
Seeing my lola suffering from severe pain almost broke my heart. It was an agony to her. You’d rather wish to die than to endure the pain she’s going through.
As i remember during our conversation, my lola did not ask that God would relieve her of suffering or raise her up. She’d rather chose to die to end up the terrible pain she felt.
My only request to God during my quiet time is that His grace would be sufficient through the trial of suffering towards my grandma. And for her to accept Jesus as her Lord & Savior before she die. (And that was the very reason why i went home, to share Jesus to her…My heart will only be at peace if i was able to do that)
God enabled me to share Jesus to my lola w/ boldness! (Thanks for those who intercedes, it was really a great help coz through God’s help i was able to conquer my fears in sharing Jesus as the way of salvation)
And finally, my grandma accepted Jesus. The Holy Spirit works! Words of wisdom just came out of my mouth boldly sharing Jesus. The Holy Spirit convicted her heart and she accepted Jesus as her Savior. I consider that as one of the great blessings i’ve ever received! Seeing your loved one accepting Jesus in her life…My heart is filled with joy right that very moment and I praise God all the more!
Once again, God proves Himself to me as an ever faithful God. He never fails me. For the sake of one soul seeking for Him, God will do everything and will make every way for that person to be saved.
I went back to Manila Friday night,Sept. 2 to finish some office works. My lola was still alive that time. I promised her to be back by Monday. I arrived Sat. 8:00am in the morning. Then 8:30am, I received a call that my lola was gone. Of course, I’ve cried and cried and cried…pouring out my feelings to God. Pastors prayed for me and I was comforted.
After worship service, Sunday night,Sept.4, i hurriedly went home to our province to attend the burial. Amidst long hours of travel and lack of sleep (coz i’ve been taking care of my lola day & night when she’s still sick) i still manage to come home immediately coz everybody is expecting me to come back that day. All relatives, sons & grandchildren were there already.
Upon arriving, i went directly to my lola’s coffin. There she lies peacefully. No traces of pain in her face though her body will tell you the severe pain she’d been through. I just silently cried. Though I was crying, I can feel God’s embrace comforting me. Joy that’s within me keeps me stay composed and strong inspite of the situation where eveybody is grieving.
And these were the lessons I’ve learned on this kind of situation in my life…
Human suffering is inescapable. Our life has its beginning in suffering. Life’s span is marked by pain and tragedy. And our lives end with the enemy called death. The person who expects to escape the pangs of suffering and disappointment simply has no knowledge of the Bible, of history, or of life. The Bible teaches us that suffering is a part of life in a sinful world. "I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us." Romans 8:18
Joy does not mean that we are never sad, that we never cry… Instead it is a quiet confidence and state of peace in the heart. "For the joy of the Lord is our strength." Nehemiah 8:10
Wherever she is right now, I know that my grandma was in God’s Mighty hands where there’s no more pain and sufferings will she bear… My love for her will always be preserved in my heart. I love her so much but I know fully that God loves her so much more than I do, that’s why He’d take her up on His side…
Our only doorway to heaven’s gate is to experience death first here on earth. But after that, we will be with the Father eternally (only if we had received Jesus as our Lord and Savior).
Hope this would inspire you to share Jesus to your loved ones, relatives and friends… Do not leave your family Christless… The best gift you could give to them is Christ. God Bless!